I know that it may sound gross but-I am fascinated with our body and how wonderfully it heals itself. I don't get grossed out by much so if you get queasy easily you may want to skip down to blessings. I am being held together with glue. There is and I measured 18 inches of incision from under my arms to center line and I am glued together. Aside from the surgical wire that is holding my drains in it is all glue. Amazing right? Very clean. Very little scabbing or rough edges. I am really fascinated by all of it. What I do want to know is what exactly is coming out of my drains. I know there is some blood, some water, but it looks like oil and vinegar mixing (think consistency). To my doctor friends - Is tissue coming through? What are the strands of solid tissue? Again, You may think I am weird but I love that kind of stuff. These are the times when I think- How can you deny a "supreme creator" Everything works perfectly together and knows exactly what to do. Every cell is designed to do a designed task. It is really breath taking.
bumps" I really hurt today. Hydrocodone is just not quite enough but I do not want to take anything thing stronger. I feel good, but I just hurt. Frustrating.
battles: My battle is that I feel well enough but pain is frustrating. Wanting to do and not being able to because of pain is frustrating to me. I don't like being weak or even appearing weak and yet it is a place that I am going to have to get comfortable. The reality is that frailty is a blessing. It is a way to show us where we can improve and it makes us dig deep into out faith. What I am learning is that my faith does not waiver, but I have so much more to learn. I think God has a lot to teach me and in my weakness He is able to do just that.
Blessings: Again- having my mom and dad at the house is so relaxing. Aunt Jo came to the house today and I cooked lunch. It felt good to be in the kitchen. (We had tilapia sauted in a key lime oil and a mango chutney.) I miss the baseball games but thanks to game changer I get to see play by play. I took a short walk (about a mile) in glorious weather. I enjoyed quiet by the pool in the morning and in the late afternoon. Hydrocodone is a blessing right now. Basketball on TV. But the blessing that made me truly cry today was that at 10"00- The doorbell rang and there was a BEAUTIFUL display of white roses with purple spring flowers from MARISSA! Marissa- if you are reading. you are a true gift from God. Do not settle on anything or anyone other the the perfection God has in store for you. You are a blessing to so many people! So do not change EVER! And thank you!
Once again- if we take the time to think about our day- we will always have more blessings that we can remember. Here is a challenge to you. Make a conscious effort to think of the good. Every perfect gift comes from above.