So chemo will start on the 13th now. I know, I know that is Friday the 13th. it is a good thing I believe in a sovereign God and am not very superstitious. Otherwise. I would be freaking out. Let me catch everyone up. Monday, good day at school- so was Tuesday. I must take a little time to brag on the student body at Master's Academy. I said it before and I will continue to have faith in our future because of the quality kids I teach. They laugh with me, allow me to share myself with them and lift my spirits everyday. I am continually encouraged by them. Sweet encouraging notes and gifts, a sixth sense to when I am hurting and a willingness to help. They do this not because they have to but because the want to. I am so blessed and humbled by them. Thank you guys for being willing to walk this road with me. I have posted a little example of the goodness. I took two of them with me to try on wigs today and the result was this:
You guys should vote as well.
Bumps: I went on-line when I was feeling a lot more pain than I though I should. MISTAKE. I have now self diagnosed myself with 10 other ailments and have convinced myself that I will have a numb, 20 pound arm with pins and needles rushing from my fingertips to my triceps for the rest of my life.
Battles: Anxiety slips into my subconscious and creeps into my day. It is a constant prayer battle that I must fight. I know that when the body is weak, tired, and in pain your mind starts doing condemning things. I must rest, rest , rest in God's healing.
I have a friend. I don't know who it is but, my birthday is going to be great! Someone, has given my address to friends, and friends of friends and I have been getting birthday cards (even a starbucks card). I don't know who you are but you bless me in a ridiculous undeserving way.
2 weeks of meals was what was on the "meal tree", So why am I still getting meals..delicious ones.
Heart shaped pillows- this things are wonderful. since I don't want any pressure on my side and arm, this little accessories fit right in the arm pit and take all the pressure off.
Steak! I was meant to be a carnivore. Johnathan, you rock for suggesting that last night!
So, to close-
Have I mentioned that Easter is my favorite. Although the immensity of this fight is just beginning and I feel overwhelmed at times I was reminded in chapel today that "Christ was burdened even unto death". What a realization that Christ himself cared so much for me that it weighed heavy on His heart- so heavy. I am only carrying my selfish burden-He carried the burden of every sin, every broken heart, every pain we all would have. I am left speechless with that thought. Friday- instead of feeling sorry for myself that I am in a "how to take all your cancer medication appropriately "class, I am going to be humbled by the price my God paid. I am going to remember that when he turned the vinegar and wine down, called out to the Father and the moment that the curtain was torn. I am going to remember that there is a direct line to the most Holy. The ultimate sacrifice was made. Then I am going to start the count down to Sunday. That is the day that Satan lost and I was given the option of redemption. He loves us, oh how he loves us. I hope you will find a place on Friday night and Sunday morning to worship.
Be good to one another!